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[avant-garde]

@AuntGlow well it's stopped me from doing stupid things a fair bit recently

sorry, not in the best mood. People don't know how much their idle conversations affect me.

[rav3n]

@avant-garde when you mentioned the "get over it quickly", it reminded me of what my mum said to me this week. always much easier said than done. 

that sucks that they didn't cater for you, and judged you for your reaction. i'd feel quite hurt too if they'd done that to me. 

i also read your poem - it's written so well, and it also makes it clear how hard receiving/asking for help can be. is it something you want to work on? do you want to ask for help more/accept help more?

[avant-garde]

@rav3n 

It's not that I don't want to ask for help more... it's more that I want to be less afraid when I do...

I think for where I'm at, I ask for help enough

[AuntGlow]

That's okay @avant-garde, I appreciate your honesty and that you're simply being where you're at. 

How are you feeling at the moment? 💛

[avant-garde]

@AuntGlow 

I just got an email from my old landlord saying my rent is in arrears.

[AuntGlow]

Oh, what?! Gah. How are you feeling about this email? 

Adulting is truly one bill after another, isn't it? 🤦‍♀️ @avant-garde 

[avant-garde]

@AuntGlow 

I already know their system has significant faults and it's an internal glitch on their end. 

I constructed a spreadsheet with the dates and receipt numbers that proves when I moved out my rent was paid in full. 

It just happens that I moved in on October 16 last year and it assumed that I moved in again on October 16 this year. 

I contacted the property manager and have the evidence to prove its incorrect. 

It just briefly freaked me out, because I moved out 3 months ago.

[AuntGlow]

You handled this really well and you sound so much more organised than I am haha @avant-garde 

You can definitely breathe now. 😮‍💨

[avant-garde]

...today was hard...

...we discussed family...

...we discussed mum...

...we discussed mum's alters...

...we discussed my coping strategies...

...we agreed that dissociating saved my life...

...we agreed that my visualisation of Jesus (aka J) saved my life...

...we discussed the early rituals...

...we discussed church...

...we discussed abortion...

...we discussed sacrifice...

...and I was honest.

[avant-garde]

@ENKELI can I discuss something with you?