Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah, I totally understand nighttime can be very difficult @creative_writer 

At least you have seen an improvement, and that's a positive. 

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8 emotional and physical pain pick up later in the day. I literally can’t function in the evening. I can’t study. I struggle to even do self care because my mind is too scattered

[Birdofparadise8]

Is it the migraines that make you unable to function? @creative_writer 

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8 it’s a combination of pain plus not being able to concentrate on things. I literally can’t function without caffeine , it allows me to get stuff done, but I can’t drink caffeine at night or I won’t sleep

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 hi princess,  how was your psych session?

I had a good day, got home just after 5 so I have time this evening to chat 🤗

I hope you've managed to work out your assignment formatting issue, it's frustrating when you can't get it to work the way you want.

How are you feeling tonight?

[Birdofparadise8]

Right okay, that would make things tricky then @creative_writer 

What have your Pdoc and psych said about it? 

Hi @ENKELI, 

I'm happy to see you online. 

It was good. We talked a lot about attachment styles, and we also talked about how I dismiss my own feelings and things that happen to me.

That's good you got home on time today. 

I wouldn't say I'm feeling the best, but I've been doing some study, and I'm watching an episode of Alex Rider, which is good. 

Do you have anything to watch?

How are you?

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 I'm doing really well. I feel like I've known my workmates for ever instead of just v a couple of weeks. I'm absolutely loving my job and it is so different from the toxic environments I'd been in the past few years. 

I still have moments where I am thinking about my God children but it's getting easier. I just wish I could talk to them. I'm worried their mother has bad mouthed me and that's why I never heard back when I did try to contact my God daughter. She may not have even got the card I sent.

I'm glad you have something to watch to help distract you. I need to find something to watch too.

I need to see what to have for dinner too!

[Birdofparadise8]

That is really good to hear @ENKELI 

Yeah I know it's hard. I do hope it will get easier over time. 

Yeah it's alright, I guess. It doesn't stop everything, but at least it's something. 

What have you got?

I had beef ragu again from dinner last night. 

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8 I’ll wait and see what my pdoc says. My psych says potentially ADHD. Caffeine helps the migraines too in moderation

[Birdofparadise8]

Okay, well, I hope they help you figure things out @creative_writer.