Dear @Exoplanet 

You have so much to deal with.

Your darling puppies are still there with you.

Of course you have concerns about them they are your family aren't they.

They have remained loving and faithful as most pets do.

They sense that you are unwell and are very aware how much you love them and that you are doing your best.

I will share with you that I have a grumpy cat who is 11 and his love is what I now refer to as cupboard love. If I am not the one feeding him twice a day, he is not very attentive towards me at all.

Even though there is no consistency in who feeds him. He sulks I am sure of it.

I hope that brought the beginnings of a smile.

Rural services are renowned for falling behind needs. They are supposed to be remedying the issue.

I think accommodation is a major issue.

This is no excuse though.

Is there an option to change your doctor? Or are they all not taking on new clients?

Given your situation you have every right to ask to see someone else if you feel up to doing so. That is if there is someone else. You did mention that he services another town as well.

Has the Cancer Society offered any suggestions re rural support?

I just want to let you know that I am hearing you loudly and clearly.

You have every right to feel disheartened and fed up with the health system.

If it helps you vent. Vent away on here.

You are expressing some of the pent up emotion that must be released.

This might in turn give you some relief even if only minor.

Every little bit counts.

Sending you a gentle, warm hug.

I will make you a cup of hot chocolate if you like.

Would you like a marshmallow on the side or plonked in it so that you can watch it melt?

I wish that I could come up with some solutions for you.

I can continue to check in on you when I can.

If I am not here I am busy dealing with real life so please, please know it is not that I do not care.

Until next time.

Keep on venting.

I talk to myself all of the time.

Love Sophia1

Always your friend